ALRIGHT!

so when I started WW I decided that I wanted to lose 10 a month. That way I would lose almost 80 pounds by caitlin's wedding!! WELL....

It has only been three weeks of WW and I already met my monthly quota! 11.2 POUNDS IN THREE WEEKS!

That is freaking rad! I am so excited because really this week I didn't even try, I didn't walk as much as I needed to and I had beer, street vendor pizza, taco c, and jack in the box. AWESOME. Not that I am going to make all that fast food a habit again, but it is really encouraging that when I do skew from the diet it doesn't hurt me. And the only real reason it didn't is because I had all that but still had my daily points. YAY ME!

So I tried to calculate about how much I will lose by thanksgiving and... it should be about 20pounds! I can't wait to see everyone so I can actually hear about the results, because down here I see the same people everyday and I don't think it is noticeable to them.

I've also already thought of a plan for when I reach my first plateau in about 3months, which will be... I will step it up and get a personal trainer! It is my goal to look awesome for that wedding.. and I am so gonna!

Rockin'!

weight watchers RULES! I went to my meeting tonight, feeling not as confident in myself even though all week I thought I was doing great. I guess I was afraid of the weigh-in... but... I DID GREAT! I lost...

5 POUNDS IN ONE WEEK!

How awesome is that?! I know this isn't going to be a regular thing and I shouldn't think that it will be, but if I loose 5 pounds again next week that would freaking rule! Now I feel like loosing the weight that I want to *which is loosing 80 pounds by Caitlin's wedding* is totally possible! I also feel bad too, cause why did I not do this before, how could I have let myself get SO bad when it is SO easy to not be fat. I know I say this now and really it is going to take some time to get all this stuff off, but if it took me 5ish years to do this to myself then 1-2 years is really not that long to lose it all! Its gonna be great and I'll update next week with the new poundage.

a few things...

so my dad's face cancer might not/most likely isn't that bad. He isn't getting surgery until march, but he claims that is because he can't miss any football or he will be fired (he's a football coach)... I think it isn't till march because he is a big baby. Anyway it is the early signs of malignant melanoma, but no one will no for sure till his face gets cut off.

As far as school goes I have woken up from my haze of bad behavior! I finally made it a week with out missing a class, which I haven't done since the third weed of school! I have declared this weekend math weekend, and I have started work on my research proposal paper! I feel good about everything, and excited that it is pretty much mid-term time!

Also, after writing the blog "school, weddings, and fatties" I have decided I will be fatties no more! Last Tuesday I joined weight watchers and it is soooooo easy! Sure I am having trouble at night time when I usually indulge in prime time snacking but I'm working through it. I am trying not to eat past 9-10pm and I'm also working hard on eating breakfest and all that daytime stuff. . . see before I wouldn't eat all day and then binge like crazy at night on really bad stuff. But no more! In addition to the weight watchers yesterday I bought a super sweet treadmill for my house AND I LOVE IT! I just got done walking for an hour and I feel great, I love the way you feel after working out its so fantastical... or rather I love endorphins!
So I will keep ya'll posted on if I am loosing weight or not, first weight-in is on tuesday and I can't wait!

face cancer

my dad's got cancer of the face!


well to be more specific they found malignant melanoma on his face under his eye, suck.

how did I find this out? oh not by him or his wife calling and telling me, he called and had a big convo about it with my older sister earlier this afternoon and she didn't tell me till about an hour ago. It sure is great being treated like you're eight.

school, weddings, and fatties

So I guess I haven't been that good with the blogging, not that I think what I write is very interesting anyway.

I'm trying to make it through what might be my last fall semester in college. I use the work might because I don't have a very good track record when it comes to school. But I'm finally so close to graduating I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel. Unfortunately before i can get through I have to complete a 300 hour internship. Its not really that bad, but i fell all this pressure like who/whatever I intern for will be my forever career. Currently I am on a wedding planner kick. I think it is something I can be really good at, but there is a lot of risk in that kind of business. I could also be some kind of government worker or HR manager, but where is the fun in that? So this is my current dilemma... try and intern doing something I could possibly love doing or intern somewhere that I almost certainly will not like? oye, not that there is a guarantee on either of those.. I don't have the most sparkling academic resume.

Other than that not a lot going on in my life, trying to decide Halloween plans and make it through the school week. Oh there is one other thing...

I'm tired of being fat and lazy all the time. I've tried to start this work out program but I seriously lack motivation (as if looking in the mirror isn't enough) I need to lose a crap ton of weight not just to be healthy and all that crap but I want to look good, buy fun clothes mostly.. yeah I guess I'm that shallow. One of the big reasons I want to lose weight if for my best friend's wedding... I refuse to be the biggest person there! I'm the maid of honor and I don't want to be all fatties and on display to everyone! I've got about nine months to lose as much weight as possible, ideally i would like to lose like 50+ pounds (told ya I was fatties)... we'll just have to see how that goes.